Food.

When I was fasting for 40 days last year, one of my absolute favorite songs was Matt Redman's I Am Yours. I like to joke that it was because of the line in the bridge, "and if my food is to do Your will, I'm hungry, still hungry." But this song has been a real favorite of mine in terms of sheer concept of praise song for a while. Why? Because it makes the Gospel so clear in it's lyrics.

It begins with an explanation of what God has done (a testimony), where God is the healer and restorer, and has taught the dead how to live. And then, there's the response, the prophecy, of how he's going to live his life now that he has one.

I was thinking about John 4 today. It's one of my favorite books in the Bible. It has profound wisdom, unintentional comedy (Jesus asks the Samaritan woman for water, and when she says she shouldn't give Him any, He goes and says "You should be asking me for water!" Puahahahaha!), a couple of verses from the Memory Verse Hall of Fame (John 13-14, 24)...It's got it all. Three of the verses I was thinking about today were 34, 35, and 36.

34 Jesus said to them, "My food is to do the will of him who sent me and to accomplish his work. 35 Do you not say, 'There are yet four months, then comes the harvest'? Look, I tell you, lift up your eyes, and see that the fields are white for harvest. 36 Already the one who reaps is receiving wages and gathering fruit for eternal life, so that sower and reaper may rejoice together.

If I were to examine my life, I think I could unequivocally say that my food is not to do the will of him who sent me. I'm not even entirely sure what that means. I mean, I understand the concept of the Word of the Lord being our daily bread, but what does it mean that our food is to fulfill the call of God in our lives? What would that look like? If I were to live in such a way as to go out into the harvest field and start gathering fruit, what would I be doing differently?

I don't think this necessarily means I immediately pack my stuff and head out into missions. But, I think it does cause some exhortation into the prophecies that have been placed over my life. And, you know what, that just might mean that I'm to be headed out into the missions field. But that's not the point.

The point is: Whatever that call is, do I do it joyfully, without a second thought? Do I want to be a Jonah, who tugs and fights the whole way, and fulfills the call as minimally as possible? Do I want to be like Gideon, filled with doubt the whole way?

Or do I want to be Isaiah, saying, "Wait a second, God. Here I am, Lord. Send me! Send me!"

Am I too attached to things here to be ready to drop them at the sound of the call?